Born not to be
Continually running through the back of my brain (like a non-stop loop on a TV news program) is the religious training that I received as a child. The name of the religion matters not except to say it is one of the Christian faiths.
The population of county that I was raised in was only a wee bit shy of being 100% of that faith. I had no other teachings of religion, except that there were other religions but they were all wrong. Naturally. those that did not convert to the "true religion" were destined for hell.
Sometime in my teens years I began to question and the answer was always, "you must have faith".
But somehow I was unable to find the "faith".
I would ask questions like, "If there is a Chinese man living in China that has lived a perfect life and could walk next to Jesus with no shame, will he go to hell?"
"Yes, unless he converts to us," was always the answer.
I have never been able to accept that and therefor, I have never been able to really accept the religion I grew up in. Also, I have discovered that other religions have the same beliefs. I am not saying that all of them do because I do not know that for a fact.
The stigma for me is that my brain has been branded as if with a hot iron and I cannot totally reject what I was taught as a child so finding another religion would not solve my problem. I am not confused about the god I believe in and I think he and I have a pretty good relationship.
Please, I would ask of anyone reading this not to think I am defiling anyone else's religion. We all have to choose and walk in the path that suits us best. I have found mine and I am happy.
Posted by George S Batty